fucked up.: Archive

fucked up.

January 2011

I can still hardly breathe and my bathrooms a mess. I need to sleep tonight, So I need some strong sleeping pills. I’m sorry again for failing you guys. I feel even fatter than before. But I’ll make it up somehow. And to the girl who thought I was her friend, You are lovely and you shouldn’t be sorry, Thank you <3

Anonymous asked: i dont know you , but i dont want anyone to go through this, butif theres something i could do to help it would be wonderful . xxx

Anonymous asked: they were meant for you . they were meant for anyone who is going through this. i was informed wrongly, im so sorry . please, let me make it up to you xxx i want to help you . xxx

Anonymous asked: im so sorry . im really sorry . i really am. please dont post my name though.

Anonymous asked: im really sorry , please i didnt do this to be mean, i want to be your friend and i want to help you , i just thought you were someon else, because thats waht i was told. please, im really sorry . <3

Anonymous asked: i apologise so badly , im really sorry <3 i thought you were someone in my year, but i really want to be your friend, you seem so lovely and nice , i really want to help you <3

thankyou so much , you are amazing. dont let anyone tell you otherwise.

Anonymous asked: you go to monte ?
if not then i must have the wrong person. please delete my name off your tumblr then please please please.
im so sorry , but i will be your friend and i would love to help you .

Anonymous asked: i told you that youd think i was weird :S

Anonymous asked: WHAT WHY WOULD YOU DIE :'(
PLEASE . OKAY ILL TELL YOU IN A MINUTE.

I’m so sorry guys. I failed you again. And I can hardly breathe. I said I wouldn’t purge today and I did. I got out of the bathroom and it only gets worse everytime. I’m sitting here with blood and puke on my face and I feel like I can’t breathe. Today was negative. Until about 20 minutes ago. When I fucked everything. I’m scared and I failed. I failed. I failed. I...

Anonymous asked: now im scared to tell you because i think you'll judge me. please tash, dont do this . there must be other ways.

I’m scared. Everything hurts and I passed out today. I don’t know if I’m okay anymore. I want to hide away and never eat again. Today was okay, Negative intake. I’ll keep this up for a while. I know I need to.

let's make a pact: none of us will binge in...

a-heart-so-weak: thinandconfident: if one of us does, we’ll be letting both our own self and everyone else down. we’re all going to do this. we’re the only ones holding ourselves back. just remember everyone who is both rooting you on and depending on you every time that you want to keep eating. in the end, do this for yourself, and not for anyone else, but just remember that you’re not alone...

Anonymous asked: i really dont want to tell you, youll think im so weird, not even jooking. that fucking anon , i wanna bash their guts until they come out of their ass. like the rest of the shit they talk.

ellectriccc asked: I weigh 47kg aswell and I realise that theoretically it sounds skinny to most people. But like you, I don't consider myself skinny at all. Weights can be different on different people. I'm not sure what the point of this message is... I gues I just wanted to tell you that you're not alone and there's someone who feels the same way you do. If you ever need to talk just let me...

Anonymous asked: So, you think 47kgs is fat? I'm 67kgs, what does that make me? Obese or? I'm just trying to point something out here.
YOU ARE KILLING YOURSELF by this, please, I beg of you to stop purging, to see someone, to tell someone, you can't do this to yourself anymore.

Anonymous asked: err , get fucked anon, go tell yourself that you're fat, you probably are anyway, if you're telling people unture shit just to make yourself feel good. tash, ill tell you who i am tonight. i think. you are amazing, and that anon can go fuck their face off, for being a shit talker talking shit. if you wannna say shit to this amazing girl, take it off anon and then see what shit youve got...

Anonymous asked: please don't listen to these anon trolls! You are not fat. You are beautiful :) and definitely do not take their advices or 'dares' or whatever the fuck they are. reading through your tumblr actually worries me :/ i hope things get better x

Anonymous asked: you are so fat. you should just stop eating. I dare you to see how long you can not eat for. I dare you to go a week and puke everything you eat up because it will only make you fat. you are so disgusting you make me want to puke just looking at you. lose some weight you fat cow. i feel sick at the thought of you.

Today was bad. I purged up so much blood I’m actually scared this time, Please tell me that happens to you guys, because everything hurts and I’m so scared. And to the anon that says they know me, Tell me who you are, Please. I probably won’t even be shocked so just tell me. I’d really like to know now.

Anonymous asked: im not supposed to see this , but i found it through someone elses, i kinda stalked their blog and came here, and i was shocked. please tash, dont.
ill tell you who i am , you seriously will think im weird,

I haven’t kept any food down for 4 days, hence why my stomach is grossly swollen. I haven’t eaten a propper meal in over a week. I need to fast. I weighed 47kgs yesterday. That is disgusting. I want my thigh gap back. fuck the healthy plan. fasting tomorrow.

Anonymous asked: havent you? really,
im a idiot, so sorrry, but it looks like it changes , maybe that was just the sunlight....
tash, youre amazing, dont think anything else.

Anonymous asked: can you please try to explain to me why you hate yourself so much, surely someone loves you and makes you feel good? i just dont understand? <3

now it hurts. it hurts. it hurts. it hurts. but i don’t know how to fix it. i don’t know how to change it. make it disappear, please.

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

brokenandempty asked: baby I need to talk to you,
I want to save you,
but you need to ask someone close to you that you trust and love for help,
because you are going to fall so fast and I can't watch that and I don't even know how they watch you now,
please IM with me,
you are so lovely <3 xxx

brokenandempty asked: baby don't let someone be so horrible to you,
It makes me want to cry,
you are so beautiful. xx